Just stop talking now…

In my last post, in amongst the ‘being cute’ thing, bambi suggested I should write about “overcomplicating things like ‘I like touching’ and communications”. It was a good suggestion.

I am learning how bambi communicates, and vice versa of course.

I have joked that we each need translators. I’m only half kidding.

I tend to speak carelessly and broadly. I often just want the concept, the *feeling* of a thing.

Bambi tends to speak carefully and precisely. He examines things minutely and picks them apart in a desire to be accurate.

Recently, I asked him, “How do you … Continue Reading

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bambi-inspired post

Ferns: I want to write a blog post today. What shall I write about?
bambi: ME
bambi: ME ME ME ME ME
Ferns: *laugh*
bambi: *raises hand , waves it*
bambi: PICK ME PICK ME PICK ME
Ferns: What shall I write about you?
bambi: mmmm
bambi: how I’m pretty!
bambi: write about my eyes!
bambi: or write about overcomplicating things like ‘I like touching’
bambi: and communications
Ferns: *nod* “He is a terrible communicator, I blame him for EVERYTHING”
Ferns: “But his eyes are so pretty!”

bambi: yes!
bambi: you got it.
bambi: now just add some filler paragraphs!… Continue Reading

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Personal training (or WTF just happened?!)

I just got my arse kicked. Seriously.

Back story (for context!)

I’ve been working out for about 10 months now.

10 months ago: I started with 3 days of weights (pyramid sets) that had 48 reps with 3 failure points for each muscle group, plus 3 days of cardio a week. I was also doing two days of pilates per week. Pushing hard. For months. Religiously.

6 months ago: I cut out one of the cardio days, so was still doing weights 3 times, cardio twice a week, pilates twice. Experimented with slow reps to increase strength.… Continue Reading

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Honesty sometimes feels like manipulation

Sometimes it’s hard to be honest without feeling manipulative.

Sometimes I know what the outcome of honesty is going to be, so it feels like I am manoeuvring that outcome by *being* honest. That can be a hard mindset to let go of.

I suspect that more submissives have experienced this dilemma than dominants.

Submissive [honest statement]: “I really like it when you just tell me what to do without asking me.”
*cue your dominant doing that more*
*you feel vaguely guilty, like maybe they don’t really want to do that, and are just doing it for you*

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Working out and being disappointed

I’ve delayed doing an update because I took some progress pictures a couple of weeks ago and I looked *smaller* than I did in December, and I was all despondent about it in an ‘ahh fuck it, what’s the point?!’ kind of way (see my body project to compare the Dec-Feb photos in the sidebar).

I was especially down about it since I had been trying to kick it up: I changed my program from pyramid sets to drop sets, and started being really strict with what I eat after advice from a sports nutritionist. Obviously that approach didn’t work … Continue Reading

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I want to do things to you

I want to do things to you.

This feeling is vague, which is unusual for me, but it’s okay.

I don’t even really know what things, just… things.

I want to take you out of your rational brain and see what happens when logic leaves you. I am still not quite sure how to do that. I can’t picture it in my head. Not yet.

I want to know how far your resistance goes. Whether it is penetrable.

I know you think and wish and hope that it is.

I hope so also. I hope that at some point you … Continue Reading

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Shit Ferns says #9

Random, no context.

The asked-for-cock-shot is the holy grail of cock shots, the zenith, the pinnacle, rare & precious

The cycle of fapping is a wondrous thing… and so it goes…

What you actually have to do involves unicorn sweat, fairy dust, rat poison & a hairless goat

We’re not at a union negotiating table here…

I am a cock shot repellent. If only I could bottle it!

…my wanking is an absolute single minded pursuit. Kudos to masturbation-multi-taskers.

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