Hunger games

I speak often about the hunger that drives my dominance. Really, when I am in it, that’s all I write about, in different ways, with different contexts: I am essentially just saying the same thing over and over.

I have a passionate crazy hunger that I ache to let loose, that I look to escalate and satiate, a feeling that makes me want to strip the very skin off my boy’s bones so I can shove myself inside him.

When I’m single, and it’s dormant, though, I wonder if it ever existed at all. I remember it, of course, but … Continue Reading

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My sent emails XXXIV

Hello 22yo-guy-who-found-my-story-on-literotica,

I didn’t reply to your last because I already told you that I am not interested in an erotic exchange and yet you are persisting with it. I am not sure what about my lack of interest was unclear.

And now you send me an unsolicited cock shot. This is a good indication that any future conversation is not possible.

Please don’t contact me again.

Best of luck to you.

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Pay attention to meeeee!!

Dumb Domme wrote a really great personal post about sometimes wanting some extra attention from her submissive and struggling with how to get it (especially as he is somewhat long distance). I don’t want to paraphrase her thoughts about it. Go read it.

I responded in the comments with this:

I want attention, but MORE than that, I want him to be all over that shit. As soon as I have to *ask* for it, I have spoilt at least 50% of the goodness in it. He should be bouncing around me all puppy-like just aching to give me attention

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Good news!

I wanted to post a quick update on my father’s cancer, for those who have asked after him.

I’m delighted to be able to say that the operation he had on the 2nd was a success, with the tests showing that all of the cancerous tissue was removed. This is, of course, a huge, gigantic, teary relief for all of us. I am beyond thankful, not least because the time between diagnosis and a good outcome was blessedly short, so it wasn’t months of stress for all of us.

There is still some discussion to be had with the … Continue Reading

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Happy new year!

I’d love to do an end of year round-up like a proper and serious blogger. You know: stats and reviews and thoughtful reflections (this is my 715th post, by the way… so there you go, the stats part is covered now…).

But I am waiting for family to arrive, we will spend the next few days together. I love them dearly, but expending social energy drains me of the wherewithal to put together cohesive thoughts here on the blog. It’s been a busy month.

So instead, I will say a heartfelt happy new year and thank you to all of … Continue Reading

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Being submissive can be scary

When I met my boy, he was scared, as many newbies are scared.

Scared that he wouldn’t know what to do ‘as a submissive’.

Scared that this D/s thing wouldn’t be what he expected.

Scared that the reality wouldn’t live up to what was in his head, in his imagination.

Scared that he wasn’t really submissive, that he was ‘faking it’ somehow, fooling himself.

Scared that he wasn’t really a masochist, that his fantasies over all those years were false.

Scared that he would fail me, not be what I wanted.

Scared that I would lose interest because he … Continue Reading

Loves: 34
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Fragility

It is a warm and muggy summer’s day. We are having a short family holiday at a gorgeous surf beach not far from my family home. I have a small family here in this country. Which suits me just fine.

Today I woke early and hid for a while in my bedroom before coming out to grumpily make coffee and make nice. I love them dearly, but they are exhausting, a combination of me being an introvert and normally having the luxury of as much alone-time as I please.

Terrible jazz music, my father’s choice, is playing loudly in the … Continue Reading

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