He is washing her, kneeling before her, warm water cascading over their bodies, his hands gliding over her soapy skin. She reaches down for a kiss, he opens his mouth to her and she tastes him in the wetness, it makes her sigh with pleasure.

He whispers something to her that she doesn’t quite hear… He is embarrassed, shy, unable to look at her. She makes him repeat it.

“Can I… put my tongue inside you, Ma’am?”, whisper-soft and hesitant.

It is an odd request and so specifically worded… she looks askance at him, puzzled. He blushes, mortified at himself, … Continue Reading

He was shocked and bewildered and lost. Our play had hit something at the core of him and he looked stricken, chest heaving, face screwed up, on the edge of tears. I cradled him, rocking him gently, kissing, crooning to him.

“It’s ok baby, it’s ok,” I stroked his face.

He looked up at me, a little boy, scared and bewildered.

“Please hurt me…” he asked in a small voice, “please…?”

I understood at once that he was asking me to bring him back from it, to ground him, to give him something solid to hang onto. I wanted to … Continue Reading

Later, we watch a movie, puppy is allowed on the bed, snuggled beside me.

I make some comment about what’s on screen to him, he answers me, laughing. It takes us both a few seconds to realise that he has spoken.

I raise my eyebrows at him. Comically, his wrapped paws fly to cover his mouth, his eyes widen, a look of shock and horror frozen on his face.

“Can puppies talk?!” I demand.

He shakes his head, his hands still over his mouth, his pretty eyes staring at me in a parody of fear, like a cartoon character. I … Continue Reading

Sometimes play just… well, it just doesn’t work.

I tried puppy play, I thought he would be sweet as a puppy… fun and playful, insistent and helpless.

He was not to rise from all fours, he was not to speak. He could make sounds, he could try to indicate to me if he wanted things. He was to act like a puppy.

He looked cute and a little confused as he sank to the floor.

I put a collar and lead on him, led him into the bathroom.

I had him on all fours in the tub, leash tied to … Continue Reading