I shall call him richie.
We have caught up three, maybe four times in the last few months. We eat, we drink, we talk. We have spent quite a few hours together, we get along well, but we are not a romantic relationship match.
He is a pretty boy, who thinks he is not. He doesn’t look in the mirror and see who he is, but who he is not.
He has no experience, is scared, his trust in me is a gift, it feels tentative. As much as this play is about me exploring some rope play, it is also about gentleness, warmth, safety…
I want him to come away feeling like he has been in a space with infinite possibilities, a starting point where the next step to reach some of them is doable and positive.
I want him to come away feeling better, stronger, more confident, perhaps to believe that what he seeks is ok, is achievable.
I want him to come away thinking that maybe he is that pretty boy, maybe, just a bit.
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Wanna borrow the cattle prod ?
Coug
Sounds like a perfectly wonderful idea. I hope you both have a positive experience and look forward to any updates that you might want to share.
Hey… this is completely unrelated to this specific post, but I have to mention: Thank you for continuing to blog and journal your experiences so candidly. It's inspiring and comforting to see someone else try to understand their own journey with such honesty. Please–keep up the wonderful work. :-)
Coug: “Wanna borrow the cattle prod ?”
Now Cougs, sweetie, one day we will have a sit down and I will explain the concept of 'restraint' to you… (not 'restraints', dammit, restraint!!)…
Ferns
slapshot: “I hope you both have a positive experience and look forward to any updates that you might want to share.”
Thanks, I hope so too. And you know I love to share!
Ferns
submissivedude: “Thank you for continuing to blog and journal your experiences so candidly. It's inspiring and comforting to see someone else try to understand their own journey with such honesty.”
That sort of lovely comment is totally relevant to any and all posts!! *smile*. Thank you so much for the kind words.
Ferns
“Now Cougs, sweetie, one day we will have a sit down and I will explain the concept of 'restraint' to you… (not 'restraints', dammit, restraint!!)”
*grins evilly* Ferns you make me sound so evil and sadistic
Thanks a lot hon I need the ego boost :)
Coug
submissivedude: “Hey… this is completely unrelated to this specific post, but I have to mention: Thank you for continuing to blog and journal your experiences so candidly. It's inspiring and comforting to see someone else try to understand their own journey with such honesty. Please–keep up the wonderful work. :-) “
Well said, that man. And absolutely right. Miss Ferns gives us D/s without the BS. She takes the trouble to dig into the world of her feelings and relate exactly what she sees there. She's one of the very few who do that.
Sir Puppington Lothian.
puppy: “Miss Ferns gives us D/s without the BS. She takes the trouble to dig into the world of her feelings and relate exactly what she sees there.”
*smile* Thank you puppy, and welcome home.
Ferns